Have your life dreams changed over the years? Mine have. Growing up my only desire was to be an actress. A famous, academy award winning actress traveling the world and going on short term mission trips in between films. But God has shown me that there is so much more that He has planted in me than what I thought. In college I had an opportunity to do some directing after I saw undergrads losing out on acting opportunities during the graduate students thesis year. I wanted to do something about it so I wrote a proposal for a show and directed a series of one acts by David Ives called Mere Mortals.
After college I was given a chance to write, direct, act and produce an original play called A Song for Peace which went on for almost 5 years. I HAD NO IDEA I could accomplish this! I have to give all glory to God because He is the one that provided for us and gave it success. During these years I had to be changed from a snobby theater kid who was given everything at college to a broken woman who had to trust God to put on the show. In college it was like this: Costumes? Sure! Hang a left at the theater and go to the shop where custom costumes are right now being designed and made for you. Need a set? Oh, well we have stage hands, technical designers, and sound designers working on that! Set will be ready 4 weeks before the show! Publicity? Covered! Script? How many do you need?
Everything was done for me. When I hit the real world of missionary theater (that’s what I’ll call it for now) nothing was just given to me. No theater with lights, only a loving inner city church with a stage and AV capabilities. Costumes? Goodwill baby! Actors? You’ll have to teach them how, Dija. Publicity? Donated. Set? Donated. Budget? A grant from my mother in law’s mission. Sanity? Barely made it since I was 5 months pregnant with a toddler and my lead had a stroke 2 weeks before the show and I had to take the part of a 60 year old grandmother!
I’m saying all this not to complain but to GIVE GOD GLORY! I didn’t know it at the time but God was putting me through His school of inner city missionary field work in the arts! He was showing me that I had so much more in me than just acting. I learned to write, produce, and be a leader. Over the years my burden for the youth has grown. And even more my burden to tell people about the good news of Jesus. Today I’ve realized that what makes me happy is not the constant auditioning for commercials and the one lone film but creating work that is meaningful and encouraging to people. I used to be a slave to a childhood dream. Now I’m a slave to Jesus. And believe me His yoke is much lighter!
If you have a dream in your heart that’s been sitting there for years. Turn it over to Jesus. He will make it bigger and better than you can imagine. Know that right now you are right where He wants you. You never know but you might be in the middle of His personal tutoring for your future life!
God Bless. Please feel free to share what God has taught you over the years. It could be encouraging to someone else.